So Tuesday started out as a pretty bad day. I was feeling on edge and Colton and Ethan were fighting quite a bit. I decided to get out and visit my cousin, hoping it would help both me and the boys. I called her and we decided to visit my grandma in Columbia overnight. The trip was pretty quiet with the DVD player and Ethan sleeping. This trip was totally uncharacteristic of me as I normally have to plan things in advance. We were packed and on the road within half an hour.
When we got to grandma's she gave all four kids (my cousin's two also) ice cream. That sure got their attention. My cousin and her family left soon after.
Grandma then treated the three of us to HuHot. I hadn't been there before and I LOVE it!!!
I even stepped out of my comfort zone once again and let the boys try to eat with chopstix. Never before would I have done this.
On Wednesday we took the boys to this HUGE park Willy and I had passed when we were up there back in March for my grandpa's funeral. This was taken from the bridge at the entrance. There were numerous slides to go down to get to the lower level.
The boys really enjoyed all the different tube slides.
These dragonflies reminded my of Caleb and Lucas. They were flying around and playing together. It was great to have all four of my boys at the park with me.
Then I did some very uncharacteristic of me. I stopped at Lake of the Ozarks on the way home to let the boy swim at the public beach. I normally won't even stop for a potty break. Or take the boys swimming without a second adult. We had so much fun though.
I guess the experience of losing Caleb and Lucas has changed me more than I have realized. I am glad I can experience life with Colton and Ethan on a whole new level. But I really miss my babies.
When I lost Jacob I was put into contact with a women through my church who lost a baby 6 years ago (at 7 months pregnant). She says that losing Sam totally changed her. She went from being shy to extroverted. Losing Sam also gave her the courage to go back to school and become a nurse. She will be done in December.
ReplyDeleteI think an experience like this really does change us. I've noticed small things too. At the very least, I think it makes us appreciate every day more and not worry as much about the small stuff. At least, that is what it has done for me.
Thinking of you all.
I love that the dragonflies were at the park with you!