I sure wish I could do cartwheels right about now! I am just so excited about making it to the second trimester. There were honestly times when I thought Cinco and I wouldn't get here. I am just elated to make it this far. And all the love, prayers, and support Cinco and I have received the past 9 weeks is just, well WOW! Thank you, friends and family. I am looking forward to the next 27 (most likely) weeks and I know that with all of you by my side, that we'll do this.
This all being written, also want to share the other feelings I have about making it to this point. I don't feel the absolute positivity I have felt after reaching this point during my previous pregnancies. I somewhat miss that feeling. The "everything is okay now, we'll be holding our baby in 6 months" feeling. I know that what happened with Lucas and Caleb won't happen this time, but I am also aware of the hundreds, maybe thousands of other things that can go wrong still.
Even though I really don't keep updated on new losses, (I actually avoid them right now) I can't forget what I know, what I have learned. I truly understand what a miracle each and every baby born is. I often think back to my 5 week ultrasound, when all we saw was a black hole. There was nothing in there to indicate Cinco was beginning to grow. And then two weeks later when we saw Cinco and a little heart beating. How amazing!!!!
I'll go back to weekly update format next week. Last week was a good week. I am definitely feeling second trimester pregnant more than first. Although I haven't had that ah-ha moment when I realize my energy is fully back. I do feel really good for the most part, though. I am looking forward to May when we find out if we'll be finally buying some pink and purple, or finding some more blue and green. Either way, I will be thrilled just to know everything with Cinco is great!