So, I have to write somewhere...and I really hope that I can figure out how to import all these posts into our family blog when we announce to the world we are expecting you. As of now, I don't know if you are currently forming inside of me, but I truly feel the need to write to you.
A few weeks ago, your daddy and I talked and agreed we would begin trying to conceive. This was HUGE!!!! I've wanted this for so long and there were truly times when I didn't believe it was going to happen. The excitement I feel on a daily basis is impossible to describe.
Now, 7 days into the 2 week wait, my mind often wonders to you. Are you in there, growing every day? In a few weeks will I get to hear your heartbeat for the first time? Or will it be a few more months before you come to be? I am really trying to be patient with all of this, but geez.
I have prayed for you for months. I have prayed for you to be here, to be healthy, and just plain alive. The reality of the baby loss world really sucks at times, especially in the place I am in right now. I know what can, and does, happen. And I know it's not just a one time thing for every mom. I worry about you already. I am really trying to trust the Lord in all this. And I know there are so many who are close to me praying for you also. Some days are easier than others.
I hope writing here will help some with all of this. I am getting ready to launch a new support site for moms experiencing subsequent births and raising their rainbow babies. I have so many dreams and ideas for this site. I really hope it takes off well. You help give me inspiration for this, sweet baby. Thank you!