It is so nice to be back into our routine! Both boys are back in school, activities are running, and bible study has started back up. I love the predictability of our days and week. I am enjoying cooking every night and am currently busy re-stocking our freezer with meals. We ate many that we had during December, so it's looking a little bare.
Believe it or not, I have yet to turn on my camera in 2012. Not really sure what is up with that, but in realizing it I am going to take some just for fun shots this week. It's really weird for me to not have my camera in tow.
I can sense grief trying to find it's way in right now. I feel really good emotionally, but every once in awhile, tears creep in for no reason. A sad thought brushes my mind and I know it wouldn't take much for he bucket of tears to pour. It's really weird, thouh. I don't feel like I am fighting off grief, just that it's around the corner somewhere. I've been really distracted, both emotionally and physically. I am grateful for this. But I also know that most of the time, the longer grief stays away, the harder it hits. So, really, I am just kind of waiting. Not really an active when-is-the-other-shoe-going-to-fall kind of wait, but more I just know it's there, lurking in the shadows.
In general, though, we are doing pretty well. Everyone is healthy, and the year is off to a pretty good (and promising) start!