Family Photos. Family Photos. Family Photos. Family Photos.
Too bad I don't and won't have any with my whole family. It totally sucks. I have such a hard time these days taking and sharing family photos. We are missing Caleb and Lucas. I try to tell myself they are with us, or in my necklace, or we'll hold the monkeys. But it's just not complete.
I was asked today for a family photo. I don't even remember who from right now. I just know that I started crying and became frustrated because I'll never have a complete family photo. We took the one at Six Flags a few weeks ago and that was really hard. I look at it and think, I should have been crazy pregnant. The twins would have been in it because my belly would have been HUGE!!
I know that after another month or so I'll see pictures of Willy, Colton, Ethan, and I and will probably feel a twinge of pain because Willy and I should each have a baby in our arms. But we won't. And I know that pain will always be there. I just hope that I can learn to live with it.
And maybe I will find a family photo from when I was pregnant with Lucas and Caleb and give it to that friend who asked for one.