Monday, July 26, 2010

Family Photos

Family Photos. Family Photos. Family Photos. Family Photos.

Too bad I don't and won't have any with my whole family. It totally sucks. I have such a hard time these days taking and sharing family photos. We are missing Caleb and Lucas. I try to tell myself they are with us, or in my necklace, or we'll hold the monkeys. But it's just not complete.

I was asked today for a family photo. I don't even remember who from right now. I just know that I started crying and became frustrated because I'll never have a complete family photo. We took the one at Six Flags a few weeks ago and that was really hard. I look at it and think, I should have been crazy pregnant. The twins would have been in it because my belly would have been HUGE!!

I know that after another month or so I'll see pictures of Willy, Colton, Ethan, and I and will probably feel a twinge of pain because Willy and I should each have a baby in our arms. But we won't. And I know that pain will always be there. I just hope that I can learn to live with it.

And maybe I will find a family photo from when I was pregnant with Lucas and Caleb and give it to that friend who asked for one.


  1. I'm sorry you'll never have a complete family photo. It just sucks. I don't really know what else to say, except that I'll always feel that way too.

  2. I can totally relate to this post. Last November we had family pictures taken for our Chirstmas Cards. It was very difficult for me because two of our family members were missing. It is hard to know that they will never be in any of our pictures. Their absence is felt everywhere. Last year I included pictures of their names on our card. This year, since we have added our twins' little sister, I hope to have our pictures taken at the beach with Sophia & Ellies names written in the sand. It is as close as we can get to all being together.


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